COMPLETELY Comprehensible

It is completely comprehendible and alright to me, if you either love me, or hate me; both represent SOME form of affiliation at least. Indifference, in fact, might begin to distract me from you.

‘Did not the loneliness of my soul, the one you saw in me, fascinate you towards me?’ that part of me questioned the other, and saying then,

‘I never knew you existed or could exist, before I saw you; and once I had had a glimpse of you, I stopped to exist plainly or in vain, but I became alive! And this is because you are also me, and we are both one…when together.’

The other part, began acknowledging. She was now excited to try how it felt to be part of the process of life: the life that resides in the body containing the auras and essential basics of a single soul. But simultaneously, she was the ‘lonely’ one. She felt obligated in a way to play her part; and that too, not for the sake of any external pressures, but at will, at comfort with her serene lonesomeness. 

Written on: 02-08-2011

Whenever doubt attempts to kill me from within, Faith keeps bringing me back to life!

Should be, but is not

Would be, but will not

Could be, but cannot

We are all meant to be,

What we might never be.

Aren't we now? What we were not

I dare to remain 'I', 

They won't strive to 'be'

I take into notice, all

That many won't dare to see.

Again

The ‘world’ kills the essence of me;

And I accept the death with a sweet smile,

Only till the point where I can die,

While being alive!

Soon, the silence breaks with a scream,

Followed by a sigh of defeat,

But the battle doesn’t end here,

It only begins.

The tired person, the weakened soul,

The stubborn idealist rises up,

Faces the ‘realism’ of that delusion again;

Faces the same old staggering pain:

Where humans are beasts,

Unfortunately aware of the transformation,

Knowingly rejecting the wisdom of education.

Ridiculous 'Sub-Human' Status

What have all the territorial differences, racial discrimination, religious disagreements, and the resulting violence too, brought us? Only more and more anger and hate to be passed on to each next generation?! What has all this hunger power and desire for money, and all the lust made out of us? How far could you go on ignoring your conscience in the name of a system designed to destroy?

And you cannot simply blame it on the ‘Free Masons’ only; partial knowledge is worse than none, and we can’t really say what all of that is about. But the least one could do is try to keep our eyes, minds and hearts open, on an individual level to begin with.

This is something like the belief, ‘Jesus Saves…’ (and the continuation could be…’so go ahead, sin all you want!’).  I mean, for heaven’s sake people, this is like giving yourself the license to kill your own conscience, the true essence of being human. Even if you look at it from the Masonic viewpoint, acting on that simply implies you’re helping them achieving their objectives by being a prototype of their design.

It is easier to stick to an induced fear or superstition without verification of its actual existence, than to take the responsibility of healing it on our own shoulders. It is easier shutting our eyes to the bare realities in the name of ‘modernism’ and ‘globalization’, than to make value addition to what can be worked upon, on the lines of ‘individualism’. I do not disagree with the globalization sentiment, but I would definitely defy living ‘sub-human’ lives, making all those pseudo-values our scapegoats, that have become accepted norms globally; for whatever reason(s).


One of the Herd??! *tut tut*!



Ah! The herd of 'sheeple', blinded by the self-proclaimed 'Watch Cat' of the 'social acceptance' of bullcrap...

Are you so scared of being termed an ‘outcast’ among your desired or prevalent circle of people, that you would sacrifice your original spirit trying to follow what they’ve accepted as ‘fate’? What’s the worst that it could get? That they label you ‘crazy’ or ‘psycho’ and stop interacting with you? To tell you honestly, your conscience is the best judge of what’s right or wrong for you; and if you’re going against ‘social acceptability’ to keep your self alive, trust me anyone who has sense enough would respect you for that. And even if somebody does not, then it’s their bad, and their loss of sight and understanding for the truth.

What It Is

A lot of times it's really hard being a girl..one doesn't always get exposed to the true realities of many faces she sees around her!

I really don't want to make it sound sexist, and especially when masking and camouflages are such common tactics generally in society. But why it could get particularly harder figuring out the 'real truth' from the 'pretense-enforced truth'; that is because the 'girl syndrome' makes it easier for men to make absolute fools out of their...no, no, no...not innocence, but their extreme dumbness...NOTE: MEN, not guys.
Guys tend to be pretty good friends, the best ones indeed sometimes. But then again, 'friend' is such a confused and distorted word these days, just like 'lo-o-o-ve'. And it is the calrity of difference between the two words, that sets apart 'guys' from 'men'.
And it is the conflict between the two that keeps us from truly understanding in so many cases, whether another couple, or our own 'other person' is 'just a friend', or 'more than a friend'. And then, 'more than a friend' also has varying connotations.


1. friend with benefits
2. f**k buddy
3. one-night stand
4. boy/girlfriend (with feelings)
5. fiance
6. spouse
7. ex-partner
8. ex-spouse
....and yes
9. gold-digger men
10. gold-digger women

*Phew*...but anyway the point is, when 'men' mostly intend to, and know for a fact that whatever the nature of the relationship, it won't go much farther than sex, why do women still cling on to the belief, or the delusion really, that it is actually 'lo-o-ove'?! Is a regular, typical girl SO stupid so as to know the truth deep inside her head, and yet deny it in her heart?!
From what I've been seeing and still see around me, and from my personal experience, so many people out there, including men and women, most of them are just bul*sh*t*ng  to each other. Trust is hard to build, and to keep, and also to give. 'Love' is a joke, a tool of manipulation that the 'men' use to hook up with the women, especially in our society, where sex is a major tabboo and polygamy is a stigma; and the ironic part is, most people indulge in it and then lie to their steady partners in order to score others.
It's not even ridiculous anymore, it's sick. And I'm not even thinking much of it anymore, I'm indifferent: the lesser devil.

But that doesn't mean we stop believing in the words 'friend' and 'love', as long as we believe in living up to our belief systems! If what we see going on around us does not agree with what we believe in, doesn't mean we stop that thinking process in our minds and join the bandwagon. The only point of contention here is that we learn to differentiate when someone is masking one thing for some hidden ulterior motives of theirs. And if you don't get what you want, don't stop struggling for it; and in the process, maybe one could substitute their love needs with something else that is self-fulfilling.